tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8252262388416087547.post4872048468761186251..comments2023-07-09T06:22:53.542-04:00Comments on Masculine Jew: ComparisonsIsh Yehudihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09559113766026730554noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8252262388416087547.post-47482525042199994132013-02-24T23:11:24.334-05:002013-02-24T23:11:24.334-05:00I had this revelation a few years ago. It was towa...I had this revelation a few years ago. It was towards the end of high school when I began to be more aware of how introverted I am, and how my own thoughts affect me as much as actual experiences in my life.<br />Someone asked me what sort of guy I want to marry and this composite image of all the attributes, behaviours, and habits I admire came into my mind. Then I realized very abruptly that I had actually constructed an enitre character in my mind. And being a construct of my mind, he is fictional. <br />That man does not exist. The relationship I seek to have with him is really a relationship with myself, occuring in my own mind.<br />Creepy.<br />So I decided to get over him and build relationships with real people who are a tzelem elokim, not a childish fantasy.<br />If someone asked me now what sort of man I want to marry, I would just say that I want to be with someone who I would want to be with. Cuz if I don't enjoy spending time with him, why bother? And if I enjoy his company above that of anyone else's, if I can trust and confide in him, if I miss him when he isn't there and want to spend all of my time with him...sounds like enough to make a marriage!<br />(even he has no idea what the phrase "vacuum energy density" means) Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03200486121370447860noreply@blogger.com